Mess

I'm scared and confused.
Am I being ridiculously paranoid.....or is there something else?
I'm suspicious. But only because I care.
Perhaps I got it all wrong. I'm sorry.
But someone needs to be there to protect you.
That's all I ever wanted to do.

claude monet is brilliant.

his treatment of colour is just unbelievable

his works put reality in a different light and makes you appreciate it better.

It reels me in, until i'm fully immersed in the flow of his strokes, the dream-like undefinition of the edges, in full awe.

If i had to pick a favourite artist, it would be him.

Electric Shock

One day.....I received the results of a test.
A test that would determine my fate.
I wasn't expecting too much of it because the day before the test, i hadn't studied properly, and I found the test really hopeless.
When I got the paper back, I was shocked.
I didn't know how to feel. Shell-shocked, perhaps.
I had just scraped by with a mere 75%, and though it amazed me how i could have even gotten such a grade with my unfaithful studying, I was disgusted at how i could have let myself slip so much.
I felt breathless, as if my life were hanging by a thread; as if i were hanging over a precipice, about to fall into the sea of death, if not for my scrawny arm strength clinging on to dear life.
An electric shock. One that woke up all my inner senses, slapped the drowsiness away, doused any sleepy notion with cold water, set my gears roaring into action.
I thank my almost failure for giving me a jump start back into the "real" world, where achievement in examinations is the highest obtainable code of honour for a student such as myself.

Ecstasy

I was walking to school from the bus stop, and was waiting at the traffic light to cross the road. A few metres away from me was this old man, rather raggedy, from what I can remember, and on a bicycle. In my drowsy state, i thought him a harmless, nice little guy.
Then, he started shouting at no one at all, not in an angry, but rather, the way one would scream when they have just conquered a mountain, all alone. Screaming, just because they can. I edged away from him - surely he wasn't in his right mind?
The green man started flashing, and I watched him while crossing the road. He had resumed his fit of supposed insanity, "Wooh!"-ing in exuberance, in ecstasy, as he weaved in and out of the cars on his bicycle.
I kept my eye on him until he could be seen no longer, disappearing amongst the mass of gilded vehicles. It seemed, he had come and gone, unperceived by all but me.
Reaching the other side, I realised it didn't matter what he had been shouting about, even it had been about nothing at all. He had given me a reason to feel. He had brightened up my morning. He had added just a bit more life to my dreary one. Hoping for me to share in his ecstasy.

Conflict

One time in Lang Arts lesson (Language Arts - English), we watched this BBC video about all these incredibly amazing writers (which I will never become, sadly), and how they go about their writing process, and their inspirations etc. So there was this part where one of the writers was at a primary school and conducting all sorts of activities to try and get the students to get creative and have fun with making up stories. So, they were to use celebrities and make stories out of them. There was one involving a rivalry between Simon Cowell and Louie Walsh, which instantly gave me the image of them giving each other the evil eye. I found it immensely hilarious, and almost burst out laughter, out of the absurdity, and yet, shocking realisticness of it all.

Then I looked about the classroom, and all I saw was blank expressions, the jovial feeling snuffed there and then. Somehow, I felt frustrated with them for not wanting to laugh, not wanting to smile, not understanding.

Where's the joy in birthdays when you know what you are going to get?
Where's the exhilaration of opening a package when you already know what;s inside?

Why are we all so careful that we cannot be slightly off the mark, such that we must get a specifically requested item?
Or is it just pure laziness for lack of wanting to be thoughtful, wanting to understand the person, and know what they would like without having to outwardly ask them.

It is a great feeling to rip open a present to find something you really like, not because you told the person to get it for you, but rather, because they knew exactly what to get you.

The best part about presents is not really the item itself, but the sentiment and thought that comes with it. Like a confirmation of appreciation, trust, understanding.

Anyday id rather receive a handmade misshapen mug than a store bought pristine perfect shirt. The latter is dead, with no feelings attached to it...just something you could obtain for yourself at the nearest mall if you really had nothing better to do.

so please. Let's put some thought into our gifts, shall we?

Jan Hai

here's to Vous!

HAPPPPPPPYYYYY BIRTHDAY VIENNA THOMAS!!!!!

You are crazy brilliant and wonderful!!!

I wish you all the best in Raffles, and hope you are enjoying yourself :)

Take it easy, yeah? Don't stress yourself out too much (which is what i do to myself)

I hope you had a really good day and that you took a break and had a great time.

I know I wasn't able to be there, but all the same, thanks for giving me such wonerful memories that i often think back on, and smile.

I hope you haven't forgotten botty sliding, D.A.D., ms cheryl, our Anti-arithmatic organisation.........haha, those were the days

I miss them, and you, of course.

Hopefully we can meet up someday, you me and sonia :)

I will now sign off!

Love from,

Emils

(a.k.a Ariana Zillah Watson)

P.S. I'm really sorry about being stupid and cold towards you.....you-know-when. Im sosorrry!!!!

Request to Miriam Yeo

We need to do a duet of this:

This goes out to all those people who suffered 100 years ago at sea on the Titanic. May you rest in peace.

As The Deer

STRESS

Green is the new black

I love Lauren Cimorelli's green eyeshadow in their Call Me Maybe music video......where can i get some?

Also, go GREEN for Earth Hour! By going pitch-BLACK......

Now's the part where I will reminisce about earth hours of the past ......
we would wait in anticipation for 8:30 to come around, and once the second hand finishes its round around the clock, we go crazy and start turning off all the lights in a frenzy. Then Marge lights the scented candles and places them on the table...and then we carry the candles like nuns and walk all over the house.
We'd sing songs and whoop and jump up and down and squeal and dance we're all exhausted. So we lie on our backs on the carpet and look out at the night sky, and feel all nice with the flickering flames throwing their light across the room. Then we'd look out the window and tut at all the people who couldn't be bothered to share in our simple joys.

I love Earth Hours

If only everyday was like Sunday

Today was brilliant.

I went to church feeling nice in my outfit from England. Then we had a really good message about changing from the inside out. Usually we try to change our outer image, to make ourselves seem more righteous, and like 'good' people, and I realise that I've been a victim of this. But God doesn't care about all that. What He sees is inside of you. What you change on the inside will start to reflect on the outside. So off I went, thoughts having been provoked, for Junior Church.
During JC, my teacher praised me and i felt all nice and warm and squishy inside, and rather embarrassed, as one usually reacts.

After church, we went to suntec city and ate at the fountain terrace food court. I was feeling particularly peckish and so had a huge bowl of deeeelish ban mian from the Formosa delights stall (it was so nice that i ignored the bits of egg shell that had somehow found their way into my soup) and some naan, recommended by Miriam.
The man at the naan stall charged us 30 cents less than it was supposed to cost, with intention or not, I'll never know......but of course, i didn't protest.

After lunch, we headed downstairs to the FOUNTAIN OF WEALTH.
We were supposed to walk to the mini fountain in the heart of the huge one (apparently the largest in the world!!!!), and then circle the small fountain 3 times, while touching the water that came out of it.........and of course, as with all fountains, we were to make wishes. Whether or not it truly works, you can be the judge of that. (Guess what i wished for?)

surrounding the fountain was this walkway, and has you walk around, you were supposed to pass by all these plaques that show you what the 12 chinese zodiacs and what it means to be whichever one you are, as well as these beautiful metal cravings embedded in the ground of the respective animals. To my delight, I found that jan hai and I share something in common: we are both tigers. Passionate trail blazers of sorts.

Then miriam and tim raced about the fountain walkway, while I sat on the stone bench under a tree and just relished in the cooling breeze. Aaah the wonders of the world. I felt supremely happy. Like nothing could bring me down.

Following that, we came to the little area downstairs which houses a gazillion koi fish. Beautiful and eye catching, but rather on the plump side. Not that we paid any heed whatsoever. We bought fish feed and me and miriam had a throwing competition to throw the fish food as far as we were able, while Jan Hai ran amok wearing a yellow plastic bag on his back.

After that we went down stairs to all the shops, and stopped by, in particular, a pet shop. At this point, jan Hai decided to start screeching in his own special jargon. Although the animals seemed quite unperturbed, the shopkeeper, on the other hand......hmmm
but Jan Hai is just so ridiculously adorable that no one has the heart to be annoyed with him.

If only everyday could be like Sunday.

Adorability: the ability to be adorable

Message to the Jonas Brothers:
Come back please.
I've been missin' you.....it's true...... (Hello beautiful)

I want to be able to inwardly giggle about Nick's shyness and adorable curls.
I want to burst out chortling at the sight of Joe's hilarious antics.
I want to gasp with admiration for Kevin's coolness and mad guitar skills.
I want my boys back.